let go... let go... let go... maybe im just the kind that can't let go of my past.. im sort of trying to blend in with peeps around me... my current life.. but then i guess whenever i remembered about the past.. i can't just stop thinking how good it was... how fun it was... and everything... even as i listen to the song "Houki Boshi" (a song from an anime called Bleach... and it was on episode 40th something of Bleach... and the anime reached its 200th episode recently..).. ok back to the topic.. as i listen to the song i could still remember early morning in NUSH Hostel.. me.. eating sandwich that i made myself filled with tuna pasta and microwaved it while serving hazelnut flavoured (actually its just the smell.. the aroma..) coffee... sitting in the pantry while preparing my sketch note.. and started drawing... darn.. i could still smell the fresh morning dew from the grass... and after that i walked out of the pantry and went to the lift.. moved down and went to the canteen.. sit on the electric piano.. (clavinova or something like that) and played a little while.. and move back upstairs watched the sun rising.. it was a real memorable morning.. wished my morning is always that way.. maybe i should start doing more memorable things here so that i can enjoy good things here and now.. and i wonder if anyone in my present life would ever read this post haha... i really hope that i can change these past-tensed sentences into its present-tense form and really mean it...
though this blog has been some sort of grave of my memories and i doubt that anyone would ever read it again... i just found out that i want to write again.. i want people to know me more about me, and maybe my past as well.. because recently i just found my new family here.. (though i've actually had it since 2 years ago but i felt this way about it just recently)
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and through a tickling or a bump or whtever u call it haha.. i actually revived the blog by posting this post.. i hope that peeps would wanna take a look and know me further somehow =D
apart from that today.. might be a real good day though not everything went as planned, and i got fed up along the way but overall it was pretty satisfying.. i can't say much but i truly enjoy the companies, the greetings and everything... even i recieved 2 calls from 2 different special peeps today =D though the second one come up with a not-so-good news tagged behind the long-awaited-words...
anyway i'm pretty exhausted from the activities today... from the graduation parade, the parents "babysitting" and the night cullinary tour w/ pool as the dessert.. =D anyway i just love it!! i actually never knew it would turn out so good today.. thx to God? and everyone who made it really awesome =D
i think it's been real long since the last time i go online and write something in this record of the epitome... actually apart from having problem with internet connection, i also have problem in other area... nevermind it but looking at who i was... i am actually someone who thinks a lot... and then i write it out to see how other's thinking about it... but now although i still think about a lot of weird things, i don't really write it... i just simply have a few peeps to discuss it now hehe... this maybe one of the reason the blog is getting deserted...
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come to look at it again... this blog is surely full of thoughts i have for about two years... but come to the think of it, those were times when i don't really enjoy myself much... i think i was heartbroken, sad, depressed and all those negative things that you can think of surround me... but now, i think i am much more a happy man than i was before.. though those memories i have before is still precious for me and i hardly want to move on because of those, i think i have to make myself clear by just saying, "I DON'T WANT THAT LIFE AGAIN!!" =D and i'm thinking of having a new blog... a more cheerful n happy kind of blog... i think i'll have that after i get a more stable it connection hehe =D see u next time then...
wew... nothing much happening except i'm having a 2 months holiday now =D yay!!! so happy... free of all problem for a while... but currently.. my home pc juz had a few probs... it didnt want to boot... so gonna haf someone to do something about it real soon hehehez.... erm.. mebbe datz all i'd write today.. since i really2 dunno wad to type now... =D
hoho just finished CalCULuSZZ.. end of term exam... kinda easy ImO... so i finished sumwhere ard 40 mins earlier than it should be...hehez... n gonna haf CoNCePTuaL TeCH tomorrow.. sigh.. gonna work real hard hehe...
You Are An ISFJ
The Nurturer
You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.
In love, you express your emotions through actions.
Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well!
At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.
How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut
wew... having internet connection in the house isn't as easy as i think.. hahaz... apparently the house ownerz daughter just came back from her study in China... so there is more peeps in the house that use internet.. n then... more peeps have to be out since with so many peeps... not many can play online games happily... why? coz it will lag like hell if 11 peeps surfing n playing in the house... so... some have to be out n im one of em haha.. actually the new peeps is kicked out of the internet slot hehez... darn it...
la la la... got nothing to say,... actually got lotsa things to say but no time to do so just gonna post this lousy n crappy post la la la...
Few years ago, a friend of mine, told me a phrase consists of two words.. its been his password in his laptop, his emails n so on n so on... The two words were Love Hurts.. why would someone want to carry those around everywhere he go? Maybe those two words carved into his mind from his past experience, maybe he has been hurt.. or maybe its just another phrase he found on the net... i dunno wad.. but seems dat it has a pretty deep meaning for him.. =D
Ok not that anything happened, but i just watched a movie "Sugar & Spice - Fummi Zekka", a jap movie about love.. and about things that happen when someone's heartbroken.. haha.. not to stereotype.. but most girls dat i know might do similar things to the girl in the movie... maybe boys will do the same too.. but i dunno... world is made the way it is.. some things work.. and some don't...
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Before going further.. I just wonder, what about commitment.. lets make it more concrete by taking example =P... let say u have a boyfren or girlfren.. then u see someone else is much better than ur bf or gf.. seems dat the person responded pretty well to your liking... would u rather stick with ur old one or the one that u saw as "much better in most terms"... most peeps that haven't gone through with this case would say no, stick wit the old one, it is commitment that i've made.. it is not fair to do such thing... or another answer would be to take her or him the way she or he is, is the way, otherwise u'll keep finding a better one and keep changing and that's not what a commitment is...
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But then again... after u experience such thing, u might ask again, "why would u rather keep taking the old one when u can get a much better one which might last even longer and make u happier?".. Yes or no? when the answer is yes.. Love hurts for one party... but if the answer is no.. love hurts to for another party (the one who is getting rejected and maybe also the one who choose to answer no) ? so either way love hurts is that a fact? i've been in both position.. erm no i've been in those three psositions.. i know it hurts when someone left when the feeling starts growing, i know it hurts when u know u can do better but u r rejected, i know too what i'd do if i was given the choices.. i've answered yes too when the question's asked..
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What i can conclude is that, none of the positions mentioned above is fun.. none of them feels good... i dunno how i should answer if i am being asked dat question again.. i know answering no is not a good answer.. i have not done it, but i know someone who did.. and seems dat thing doesn't work with a no for that qn.. but a yes would hurt real bad too... darn... a hard question isn't it..?
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Sacrifice might be a key to answering the qn... which would most likely lead to the answer no for the one being asked qn.. but looking for different angle, if u want the best for the person u loved, wouldn't letting ur love answering yes is the key to make that person more happy? i dunno... this may not be valid too.. and damn.. why should i watch a movie that remind me of this freaking question...??
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Btw another thing that can answer the question is the phrase i posted last time.. its actually from Jenny, but not sure too where she found the quotes.. "Treasure what you have now, for that was once in ur wishlist..." so obviously with the quote, the answer to the quetion would be a "no, i'll keep the old one.." hahaz...
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Some of u might have realise after reading so long... the phrase love hurts is true to a certain extent.. it does for those who finds the situation i wrote above.. though love doesn't taste so bad when it is on the air and u r flying along with it hahaz.. it only hurts when it suddenly drop u after u reach certain heights... pretty general huh? after u drop from those heights, either u recover completely or that drop will give a wound and a scar that would still hurt after so long.. but damn it hahaz.. nevermind... i think we can start on another topic that'z more fun next time =P
yoz... long time never write anything here.. not much thing happening around too actually.. or maybe i'm just being too lazy... but then nevermind u've got me here already =P
but really nothing much in mi mind either... so i'll just write soon.. yes soon =P
yoz just wanna drop an early happy valz to everyone coz recently the internet connection wasn't really 'connected'.. so since today i can get the connection.. i'd like to express mi happiness by writing this =P... anyway love u all peeps!!! =D
okie.. first of all just wanna make an announcement, my new fone no is +6287833002300 hehez... what i a nice series of number i have there kekekekeke...
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next i'm going to start my hateful comment on chain letter hahaz... recently i got more and more of those creepy chain letter.. not only in my email, but also friendster message inbox n bulletin board... darn it.. in one of those chain letter in the inbox get me questioning... why would the pope's dream be Jesus saying "I am the BEACON in this world, whoever follow my path shall not walk in the darkness but in light." while in the very same letter to spread this good news to the world have a phrase like "If you do not forward this message to at least twenty people, bad things might happen to you. Margareth, a millionare's daughter throw a copy of this letter into the trash bin and ignore it, a week later she was found murdered bla bla bla..."
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feels more to me like a devil is the one sending this letter to curse everyone in the earth with the name of God.. hahaz.. darn since when did I become so religous n talk this way.. nevermind but then again, wouldn't it be nicer to remove all the curse before you forward the message? i've got another one saying curses like you will die in three days n stuff, i ignore it and here i am writing this entry (i read those like a year ago maybe?).. maybe i should make one bulletin saying, "Stop all kind of chain letter with any kind of curses after you read this message or you will die in three days by getting a shipment of onions that has been sliced dice and you will suffocate by breathing in too much of the onion odour into your lungs!!! You may send a chain letter without any negative curses in it or you could edit it first to remove the curse before forwarding it, doing either one would prevent the menace of the onion odour..." hehez... good isn't it? cool man, only if the curse is this good, i won't mind sending it again, along with the curse hahaz...
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only if other peeps realise this and at least do edit the letter before forwarding it... btw I do edit the letter before doing any of forwarding if i thought it worth forwarding.. if the one sounds like this one:
"3 year old died having a baby"
Body: Body: On December 24, 2006 at 8
o'clock in the morning, a young 14 year
old boy by the name of Scott Jackson was
found dead. Doctors couldn't come up
with the cause of his death. His mother
checked his emails to see if she could
figure out what happened. Turns out he
was still signed into myspace. She found
he had gone to sleep after he read and
didnt repost a chain letter about a
little girl that kills you in your sleep
with no natrual cause of death.
This is the bulletin he read:
My name is Ofelia Heras. I'm 16 years
old. I'm a murderer. I have no face.
When you look at me you'll die
immediately.You have 900 seconds to
repost this or I will visit you tonight.
Repost this "3 year old died having a baby"
then i dun think it worth forwarding, so not that im forwarding it here in mi blog, i was just trying to give an example of how bad has it become, not even a good message is inside this letter, so what's the point of sending it for the first place? for the superstitious ones... try not to send any of this once.. proof if this is the curse is real, if it is then you can send it to ur fren but remove the curse before please hehez.. coz by leaving the curse there... you have cursed your frenz, it is no more the one who created the letter in the first place, but you =P...
Referring to mi fren'z (Nakkie's) entry about Choice... for those who has time u can try see the real post by Nakkie down there by clicking on the word "Choice" upthere =D... otherwise u can just read it here hehez... his question was "Would you rather spend your last day in the universe knowingly or unknowingly?".. Quite a question right? hehez.. but different peeps might have different oppinion, some might think the way Nakkie think, but i'd rather have my last day unknowingly =D
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reason being?? okie.. i like surprises hehez.. wouldn't the day you watched the show "Friends" with Jesus be the best day of your life? ... erm let me rephrase it... Wouldn't it be the best day of your afterlife?? why would I want to know that day? the surprise factor wouldn't be there anymore if you knew it... that'z the 1st reason hehez...
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secondly... knowing the last day of your day on earth.. would make you think lots of things.. who would i want to meet for the last time? where do i want to be on the last moments? what image of earth would i want to keep eternally? who should i marry in the next 3 hours so that i could die married? or in which position would i want my last "pleasure of flesh" be? (okie the copyright of the line and the lustful way of saying it is Mr. Ravindersingh Sidhu of JJC kekeke...) i don't want to have all these question in my head... and to regret it if it is not fulfilled...
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considering these two oppinions... i'd rather have it unknowingly... makes mi life much more simpler and though i might have something i want to do before i left the earth, i'll make sure it happens with all the might i have hhehez.. if i can't then too bad, n i'd take it as i'm not supposed to do that... =D so if i have the chance to do it in the afterlife, i'll do it in the afterlife hehez.. =D
DeCeiVeRS aRe THe MoST DaNGeRouS MeMBeRS oF SoCieTY. THeY TRiFLe WiTH THe BeST aFFeCTioNS oF ouR NaTuRe, aND VioLaTe THe MoST SaCReD oBLiGaTioNS..+++The first one is my art =D done it a month ago =D, it is suppose to be "aFFeCTioN", still havn't lost too much touch on the art haf I? i know it is not so good of a drawing, still trying to make it better though... ignore the background coz thatz not what i really put most of the effort into hehe i admit the background need sum changes... trying to haf it colour using fotoshop though... (despite the fact that i'm yet to be proficient enough in using photoshop -.-") anyway lets go to the second one: interesting stuff from the net hahaz, cute and deadly, not talking about Cute girl holding weapon ,as but more towards, its pink and it kills... without further ado... lets welcome the CPR (Cute Pink Riffle): 
hahaz... nothing better than this.. then i try to imagine how it would look like if used in real battle... thatz where mi photoshop skill come in handy hahaz... here haf a look so u dun haf to imagine anymore hahaz...
hehez... another shop result of a tutorial on the net... quite a nice fireball we have here isn't it?? =D
haha this is what i end up with after nakkie give me the shop tutorial link hahaz... not particularly well done since i dun dye my hair or highlight it red.. if i did i can haf a flaming hair like phoenix hahaz... anyway this one looks more like glowing hair hehe...
before I start all mi ranting hehez.. i shall apologise to everyone that try to contact me during the x-mas week =D not because of anything but the phone with the sim card (+6285640302740) wasnt with me all along during the week -.-" and for those trying to contact me.. again i apologise =D...
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anyway just wanna wish you all merry -belated- x-mas since i can't go online too during the week... and got a quite great x-mas present from parents =D a new speaker set or whatever you call it hehez... quite happy with it and also there is a few minor changes at home and my room in the share house too hehez... i actually take a snap hehe... here it is...
yay new tv set in my room at home =D... and:
anyway now i have to start mugging for the coming test.. on 3rd n 4th of january =D hehez...
Which Disney Hero Are You?
You are part Simba. You're young, naive, and misguided. However, don't fear, because your growth comes exponentially with hard times ahead. Only then will you reach the goals you've set out to accomplish. 
You are part Hercules. You're known to be kind-hearted and strong since birth, but despite your virtuous character you often get mixed up with the wrong people. Be on the lookout for new people in your life and make sure that their intentions are as good as yours. You're impressionable because you're humble, so let your strength shine through once in a while. Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com ***Which Harry Potter Character Are You?
You are Draco Malfoy. You're an arrogant son of a bitch. You won't let anything get in the way of your quest for power. Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com ***Which Hogwarts House Would You Be In?
The Sorting Hat would put you in Hufflepuff. You are reserved, rational, and down-to-earth. You work well with others, are a great team player, and you always take a stand against injustice. Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com ***Which Heroes Character Are You?
You are Hiro. You are everyones favorite Japanese tourist. Your time is well-managed and you make sure things get done. On top of that, the girls always want a second chance with you. Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com
i dunno i guess maybe i've written it before somewhere... or didn't i? hhahaz... anyway recently i keep seeing peeps that hardly haf pride or confidence in themselves... it sometimes get me irritated when they just simply declare a "lost" before the war even started... where the hell is their pride? where the hell is their spirit?
another thing that matters is that some peeps just cannot accomodate others... another thing that i hate so much hahaz... darn i've been hating lots of thing recently... what have i become then.. an epitome of hatred?? hahaz... then i've got lots of title then... =P
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erm yesterday someone actually asked me to choose a word, an image (of anything), and a colour... okie, im not sure what are those for but i answered anyway... so the word was "loneliness" the first thing that come to my mind.. not sure why also... the image i chose was a palm... but the the person asked me to choose another one, so i chose heart (dunno why i chose this too, but palm is an image that i like coz it is something with a very deep meaning, i can protect something in my palm, and at the same time i can crush something that is in it too... something around that sentence but not that shallow and i cant really describe it well now, maybe another time?? hehe) and as for the colour i think i choose black..
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i've also become confused with a few things recently hahaz... thought i'm much more at peace now about that particular problem =D... okie, its about the belief thing hahaz... i've resolved my thoughts i guess... and btw i've got a chem test today hehe wish me luck?? =D
Lalalala... i just took a test made by davin, my junior in RI last time... he seems to be doing fine =D and then i top scored the rest =D hohoho... i feel really good man!! i've gotten 3 wrongs which is his hobby (i thought he love playing, but it appears to be something else... then the next one is about BGR, he never told me about himself having a girlfren before -.-, and the third one is the date he reached spore last time -> the day he cried on the bed when his parents left hehez...) anyway life here is getting more and more boring... i ponned a lesson today... the slack one though... and i'm on the way to cmplete my rock deck yay!! need only a few more card to go and it will be a really awesome deck :D... need 3 more Thoughtseize, a Damnation, 3 Treetop Village , and an Urborg , then a warhammer and a birds of paradise erm.. what else do i need... maybe one or two more of Extirpate and that would be all... My super deck is born hehez... if u're not sure what i'm talkin about then check the underlined words upthere hahaz btw i'm in a good mood =D... and by the way.. u can take the "You know me test about me by clicking the link button next to "Yuhang"'s link... =D
Wee i'm back but i still have yet to find something to write about... erm... so i just wanna post a foto again hahaz... a discovery that really have my eyes stuck onto the monitor and the adrenalin fills my blood veins
hahaz.. it was like at most 10kb/s before but this morning it's 40kbps... im so happy haha, not that i've never seen the one faster but it is really the fastest i've ever seen in indo.. omg.. now i've downloaded 5volume of bleach to complete the bleach collection... brr... and still downloading... i dunno how it get so fast... beuh... but its good hehe..
btw i just did a 2.4km run on monday and my timing was 14++, how can i get back my 12++ timing... i think 7 months without excercising is reeallly bad hahaz... anyway that's all i have for today... =D
hey hoooz... hahaz felt simply happy today coz i just topped in the class for Chem Mid Term test LoL... it's not anythng but ya im still happy about it =D weee.... btw i just happen to be a li'l bit narcist today and i photoshopped one of mi fotos n turnin it into this: =D
hehez... but recently i've got really nothing to write about here... duh... nevermind me =D
Thursday wasnt really a good day for me... I broke a glass funnel and get to buy a new one to replace it... but the thing is dat i dun seem to know where to get the replacement from... haiz... then yesterday i accidentally scratch someone's car.. luckily she'z a high school girl.. first she shouted at me, then she sort of ask me for money to paint the car back, but when i get my wallet to replace it suddenly she said "Don't need la.." then she get into the car and speed up again... wew.. the thing is dat i never really felt dat i've scratched her car.. haiz again dunno la... 
btw this is the funnel that i break the other day... i dont take a snap of the girl or the car since i do not want to create any trouble more than the one im in that time hahaz.. chat with auntie jenny the other day too hahaz.. feel really nostalgic sia...
''Bali.... again... ok its the 2nd time i went there this year... earlier this year it wasnt much of a holiday since its packed with those cross country activity.. but this one pure holiday hahaz... so what did i do there?``
Lemme see... Parasailing... Feeding turtles... Snorkelling... Watching corals and feeding fishes (i just realised i fed lotsa animals during this trip, including monkey, bats, birds and some kind of lizards) i went to Bali Bird Park too btw.. then i went to some Hindus temple... not praying but just looking at it coz the temple is kind of different from the one that we see somewhere else.. and its really misty up there somehow... and also went to some highland full of limestone.. they say they planned to build some super huge statue with height more than 140m and 60m wide... ok.. now im gonna do a 8000++ words description of what i've done in Bali =D
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People say a picture tells a thousand words hehez... So that would be 8000 words isnt it hehez... Overall it was fun but somehow I didnt really manage to enjoy it... LoL another of my anomaly =P... parasailing was fun, u gotta see things from the sky hehe bird view, too bad we are not allowed to bring our camera while parasailing -.-" then the rest was just viewing some scenery, other than that.. there isn't really much since we only go for a 3 days trip coz mi parents gotta work again after the few days "hari raya break" hehez... n gonna be back to campus real soon hehez... (Btw i somehow cant upload the rest of the pics so for time being i'll stick to the 8000 words description =p)
hey hey...long time no see!! btw i've just took one or two fotos of me recently... but things are going fine so far i'm the "most dependworthy and trustable" guy in class... somehow i'm the only one who do homework here... omigod... if i dun do it... i guess none will... n cant copy others work too since none of them did... and i recently are more active n religious activities though most of the time i will start do my own anti-religious teaching and preaching hehez... n i do kendo too btw here it is the master kendo to be.... the Q10 kendo-ka... Iphanx!! hehez... btw that's a real shinai a ka wooden sword.. that will hurt peeps pretty badly when the senpai use it to hit someone... n it looked as if im wearing a skirt when i wore that hakama (the training suit).. btw the black suit looked really beautifully ellegantly coooollll!!! hehehez... haf not take much pics nowadays.. gonna show u more when i take more of my campus fotos =D until then... bubye =D
la la la started everything already and its been 3 weeks? or is it 4.. not sure haha but anyway things are geting better n it gets more and more fun... seems dat guys here aren't so bad after all.. but few of the lecturers arent up to mi standard =p... hahaz... most of them were just doing some monolog with the board n totally cover up the bored... sumtimes they dun really teach or doing a loud monolog; sumtyms it was just mumbles n mumbles... havent gotten any test yet.. but expecting one soon.. as in this monday hahaz.. n i join kendo club!! meeenggg!! koteeee...!! dooo!!! hahaz... these are the kind of shouting that you suppose to do when you hit your opponents hahaz.. la la la... today im kinda heppi too for not sure what reason hahaz.. nvm me... n i joined a cell group here.. it was quite fun... i really mean it n i really feel dat i've to go there again next week hahaz... mood is peaking today datz all =D
This one is a really long blog since i havent done it for a really long time.. been having lotsa trouble wit net prob recently.. hope i can get one up to mi residence asap so i can blog anytym i want like i did last time hahaz... anyway after the "***" is mi entry before the one u see rite below dis one, ok??
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It's been really long since the last time i wrote.. i mean really write things in mi mind n put it up here hahaz.. juz wanna say dat i just stepped into a new stage of life.. just imagine you are playing some sort of megaman series where you just beat a boss and go into your next stage hahaz.. life is good.. now living in a city dat is very cooling in the evening and very cold when the shorter arrow of the clock reach the area between 2 to 5.. n the water is freaking chilling freezing cold.. lets put it this way.. the tap water for bathing is just like the one labelled cold in the water dispenser.. wth.. never knew it was so cold before and i happily pour one whole bucket of em right to mi body... luckily there is a tap for hot water too.. though that means i have to wait and let it heat up first b4 using it... kinda troublesome but thats the way here hahaz.. so everything goes into the bucket first..That was tha bath.. the room is actually quite nice.. a single bed and a quite large cupboard for me to put mi clothes in.. no more wrinkled shirt since the "helpers" here wash clothes n iron it for me.. i mean for whoever staying in this residence.. they do it good hahaz clean n smooth.. i think they must use some sort of softener.. cost ard S$100 per months.. add 20 if you wan internet connection ahahaz.. they provide rice for us too no extra charge for the rice =p... Gonna start uni next week.. half excited half worried.. the orientation here wasnt like fun like "Saintierra" or wonderful like "Life Begins Here" or breath-taking "Kaleidoscope of Life" heard it was more like seniors will 'have fun' wit the juniors.. shut the dirty thoughts, not the *toot* kind of having fun otherwise it wont be orrientation but orgy-entation hahaz.. (coz sum horny guys responded very weirdly when i say "haf fun"... ok what i meant by haf fun is that they will get the juniors do all sort of funny things that include singing weird songs, scott jumps, push ups, sit ups, shouting at them n so on n so on... had it before in high school in indo last time.. hope this one isnt as bad as the one i had before..Ok.. the residence mate was fun n friendly.. few of them go to the same uni as me.. None from the same faculty... erm.. hopefully life's gonna be fine here hahaz..
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I think i start missing peeps in mi previous stage of life =p.. the horny couple roomamates ditz & yuhang... never-talking-to-each-other couple roommates nakkie & linh... empty-bedded roommates derry & sophea (since i moved here n there once in a while n sometimes slept in ditz bed or mi juniors bed...), the-half-very-dirty-half-quite-neat couple roommates charlie & linan.. not sure how the girls rooming work.. is it jenny & mia, vattey & angel, muriel n sum prc?, trang n hanh, chen hui n pui khuan??, i remember one for sure esther n janene hahaz.. why? coz one of mi juniors use to look at the room during roll call and ditz roommate use to look at the same room too during roll call hahaz.. happy miss & matching hahaz..Missing the nights me n ditz jump in n out the laundry room, the all-night-long talk wit jenny, trying to talk to linh about the asean shirt momment wit nakkie, yuhang n charlie.. (was charlie there? or was yuhang there? i forgot ahahaz but i know nakkie was there), the night spend finding out yuhang openned a website rated 21 n above =p (yuhang's secret revealed =P).. watching family guys, the simpsons, n southpark before tests wit everyone.. watching ditz playing onimusha in the tv room n get chased out by sum prc peeps.. hey i also remember wei xiang brought me bdae cake in front of the hostel n he get mia to call me down hahaz.. remember the booze we drank when we reach the hostel for the first time =p (too bad the were beer n scotch n both taste bitter n i hate em...)... badminton excercise wit sophea nakkie esther ricky daniel n juniors hahaz.. n bad memories how i lost 3 boxes of mi belonging due to barbaric action done by some group of peeps at the hostel store room.. freakng hate those peeps man..Feeling nostalgic man hahaz.. ok datz all for now.. gonna write again next time =p...
hey hey... blog isnt dead but the author is half dead due to flu hahaz.. erm not much thing going on recently so its juz gonna be a filler post so it doesnt look dead hahaz... =p
la la la.. mood quite good today.. been listening to avril's new album again n again recently hahaz.. like lotsa songs in that new album of hers =) wee.. cant imagine what would happen to a girl when avril sing dat 'girlfriend' song to her boyfren hahaz.. but hey songs in that album mostly are upbeat n cheerful hahaz.. feel kinda happy after listening to few of the songs.. wee.. hahaz.. not much happen to me too now.. spend most of mi days watching national geographic channel... discovery n animal planet hahaz.. lotsa fun tv programmes there =)...
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n actually now i feel that most of stuffs here are cheap hahaz.. i mean even though i've been here since november but i started exploring places only recently hahaz.. so hey watch movie for only less then S$2?? hahaz.. eat good food for less than S$1??? okay enuf of this stuff hahaz.. though sometimes some other stuff are definitely more expensive here..
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also recently found out that egoism isnt relly describe me well hahaz.. i know i love miself alot, but that mite not be enuf to describe me hehez.. maybe add a grain of loneliness and a pinch of vengeance lol.. sounds like akroma isn't it? hahaz.. ok enuf of jokes haha now i've got akromas, karonas, stonebrownies running around mi head.. why? coz i just found out that im gonna be near a magic:the gathering player centre where im gonna live the next 4 years? hahaz.. yay.. at least there's something that i could use to relate miself wit peeps here omigod.. especially the foil serra avenger full art promo card that i've got few months back hahaz.. la la la... i somehow feel relly good about this hahaz.. (woo.. btw the last time i bring mi album there few of them was like *o*...) when they look at those foil ravnica dual lands hahaz.. ok relax.. relax a li'l bit.. lotsa strange language for non-magical peeps out there (harry potter call thems muggles hahaz.. not harry but the peeps around him =p ).. talking about harry potter.. i think im gonna watch it soon.. hahaz.. i konw its still a bit late.. but soon soon i'll be back wit the review =p.. spoiler anyone??
Hahaz.. It ain't really the story of mi life from the little me to the present me but i'll just try to outline the whole thing into something simpler otherwise it will take out the whole of mi blog entry screen if i wrote all.. i shall cover 4 years of mi life in spore hahaz.. (the title is inspired from Theodore "T-Bag" Bagwell... Fox River convicts when the doctor sew his hand hahaz......
4 years ago... um now it should be 5 years ago.. okie, 5 years ago i took up this test set by the Raffles Institution hahaz.. was a sort of IQ test then mathz and physics... plus a short interview hahaz.. after those test, i wasnt relli hoping to go through since mi competitor was like those the tops students in the whole school and few mathz champions plus sum english masters hahaz.. but then few months after that they announce that im in n one other guy named Rudy hahaz.. he was one of the mathz champions hahaz.. it was relli miracle i guess... so i went there n meet a few other 4 from ther city hahaz.. it's relli fun knowing them, first few months of our life there was like woohoo together with Freddy (aka Froggy),Rudy,Ferro,Denny, and Thomas (a.k.a Tomush)... all about english hahaz.. though i'm not the best or do really well in the english course i think i did it quite fine considering the standard in RI was kind of high hahaz.. the first year of mi life there was kinda boring.. for peeps to see hahaz.. normal life, go school, go home, bathe, eat n sleep hahaz.. oops i miss out the study time hahaz.. ...so that's realli all of mi 1st year towards the end i guess i did a project about orchid cross-breeding hahaz... through tissue culture we manage to grow fungus from the orchid-germinating-jelly-supposed-to-be.. hahaz.. coz we wasn't really careful when moving the orchid seeds so out of 6 we onli manage to save 2 of the orchid-jelly-dish.. hahaz... the project didn't really go well since we weren't really prepared for it, Denny n Ferro n Bambang were not quite happy about the result too but then we score just fine hahaz.. Towards the end of the year the next batch of RI school based scholar came.. and before that we, the first batch thinking about what should our group name be hahaz.. then we find out it will be Pioneer VI (VI as in roman character for six since there were six of us and we are sort of the pioneer hahaz the first batch hahaz..) that would be all of mi 1st year there.. not much things going on huh? ok n there's interesting thing hahaz.. there was one of this cute Bio teacher n all of us were like "WTH" coz we have never seen a teacher that pretty in our home country hahaz.. so ya.. it's coz we weren't used to that kinda cute face hahaz... after a while we saw a lot more pretty teacher in Spore hahaz.. (wondering when would Indo haf those kind of eacher with such intelligent n beauty hahaz.. i sounded pervert? no no it wasnt me who said that but other peeps in the batch, i was just writing it out hahaz..)...
the second year i was introduced to this thing called Magic:The Gathering, a unique game that sometimes u can made money out of it or losing money hahaz.. but its fun to play that... oh n mi junior Davin thought me how to play it hahaz and it become our batch game hahaz.. most of the RI-school based peeps know how to play this except the 1st batch.. onli me Tomush n Froggy know how to play it.. but all the following batch peeps know how to play it hahaz... plus a tutor who 'tutor' us how to play better n introduce us to Bishan card market where most of the Magic player trade their cards hahaz.. after that, not much thing going on, i remember i played Diablo II that time using Bobo's laptop n we also develop LAN gaming habbit together with Ronald who was from mi city too but he went to spore a bit earlier n he's a Sporean who spend the first 12 years of his life in Semarang so he wasnt really look like Sporean or sound like a Sporean hahaz... we played Warcraft III normal game back then there weren't any DoTA around back then hahaz.. and...... haha this is the part when i started to relli like a girl in Spore hahaz.. okie we the indons call her cat girl since that time shez the only one we saw hugging n playing with the boarding cat hahaz.. as for me i like cats n apparently we have something in common hahaz.. so towards the end of mi secondary school, Tomush n me determine ourselves to get to know a girl, erm wait i think Tomush did it the year before.. erm i forgot but nevermind ooo wait i remembered it wasn't Tomush but Davin, Tomush did it to 'cewe bule' a year back... ok nevermind Davin get to know the 'cewe barbel' hahaz.. as for me it will be 'cewe kucing' hahaz.. then i started msging her n take a few photograph with her.. hahaz.. i end mi secondary life with not a really pretty score but i manage to go to SAJC hahaz.. and there i meet a few new friends n one of them become a really close fren of mine hahaz.. i forget in this second year i played Bridge n Hearts alot hahaz.. together with all mi batch mate plus Ivan Nova Bona another Ivan in the hostel hahaz.. life was fun back then =)......
in the third year there was much more going on hahaz.. dammit i become really nostalgic n stunned for a moment before start typing this out hahaz.. (coz im listening to some melancholic song haha Jewel by Ayumi Hamasaki hahaz..).. knowing a few friends in the new hostel too hahaz.. but apparently i break alot of hostel rule back then to the point that mi Cluster Mentor ask me whether i really bother about the rule or not hahaz... i actually bother n try not to break it but then again hahaz..i just broke it again n again coz it seems that too much trouble n inconvenience going on with those rule around =) no offense intended by saying this though =) where shouldi start.. erm kie should start with me likeing a small girl in Hwachong Hostel haha.. i liked a secondary 2 girl back then n relli tried to get otgether with her hahaz.. did something for he on Valentinez day hahaz.. burned a CD wit a few songs in it hahaz.. then on that day i asked her but in the end she rejected me hahaz.. (aka admission denied -> NUS term for rejected hahaz) but i still chasing her around hahaz.. n that time i got a new fren too Kristy n Demmi hahaz.. i was kinda close to both of them when i was in Hwachong hahaz.. oh ya and Tina too but she wasnt around much hahaz.. and spend alot of time together playing cards there hahazz.. n the nagging aunty who were a hostel guard who nagged at us everytime she saw us.. realli like wth haha.. ...
still in mi third year in spore hahaz.. not long after that the 'cewe kucing' (meaning 'cat girl') suddenly msg me out of nowhere asking if i remember her hahaz.. wth n she asked me to haf lunch together haha.. i took mi time replying her n said yes but not long after that mi fren Nova Bona msg me too n asking me to haf lunch wit him haha.. on the same day n same time hahaz.. so i tell him that the girl ask me to haf lunch already n so i tell him if can then we should just haf dinner together hahaz.. but then something quite complicated discussed n in the end i cancel mi appointment with the 'cewe kucing' n planned to haf lunch with him on saturday.. on that very day too the small girl planned to go back to indo n peeps ard me asking me to send her off hahaz.. and on that very saturday, mi fren merwyn ask me to go play LAN game wit him n Davin n few other RI peeps hahaz.. and so im in dilemma.. what a messy day i haf there... lotsa going on on that day so 1st i've to decide whether to send her off or go play LAN game.. but in the end i played LAN game hahaz.. quite fateful wor? coz if i didnt go there i wouldnt have met mi twinnie hahaz.. so i met mi twinnie there n if ichecked i wouldnt have ever meet her again or even know her if i didnt choose to play LAN game n which usually peeps would choose to send the person he or she likes off than playing LAN game rite? oh n i dun even noe im gonna meet her there beforehand hahaz.. quite cool rite? in the afternoon after played that LAN game, i went for a lunch wit Nova Bona hahaz... but to mi surprise the cat girl was there too.. i was shocked... then not long after that Nova Bona told me that he n the girl actually haf a bet, which appointment would i choose, whether wit him or wit the cat girl hahaz.. quite a game wit a prickle of sensitiveness issue they played here hahaz.. oh ya.. n Rudy was invited too hahaz.. me n Rudy was wondering if the two who were having lunch wit us are 'together' already not sure coz they seems to be very close back then hahaz.. but that's a fateful day i guess hahaz.. lotsa going on and if i choose to haf it differently, mi life would've been different now hahaz... from that day onwards i spend quite lotsa time with mi twinnie hahaz.....
still in my third year hahaz relli alot going on here i guess.. i went from SAJC n transfered into JJC together with Jenny hahaz.. then we become quite close after we moved n choose the same class n hey got another close fren moved to JJC too haha Raditya Prasidha Kristanto hahaz.. then i go for Students' Council election n did some campaign... then i became a member of 25th SC =)... then i've lotsa going on as a council, more frens more events... we went pekanbaru trip plus CCA leader cum West6 camp.. we were landed in Spore n haf the camp immediately hahaz.. we haf it continuously.. i think all were done in total of 8 or 9 day... n we haf teacher's day celebration too before we went to Pekanbaru =).. adjusting to the council life n jc life n facing mi Cluster mentor hahaz.. kind of crime that i did in the hostel is that to bring in non-boarder into the hostel area, to stay out without permission, go into another block n sometimes sleep there n played bridge in the hostel area hahaz seems that they banned any card games in the hostel hahaz..very naughty indeed if i see again now.. and there's this event called Asean Dance.. never went there before but i guess since we were 'school based' n we didnt even know when it was.. we knew that it existed but for Asean Scholars hahaz... n that time i guess i danced with Aline n Thu.. that's all i guess... towards the end of the third year i spend hell lotsa time studying with jenny for the promotional exam hahaz.. that's all mi third year more things going on that wouldnt fit in if i type all.. hahaz.. ...
fourth year was a though year i guess.. haf to catch up with studies n went for another tri[ to manado, very nice n lotsa good memories there getting gifts from a few peeps there like shirt n few other stuff =) wanna go there again if i can hahaz.. Radit got his first girlfren just after we take off from Manado hahaz.. i wonder who the girl is n shez not from Manado of course hahaz.. then get to know a girl named Esther who played badminton a lot wit me hahaz.. we took a few pictures that according to peeps was relli out of mi mind hahaz.. the one when she pulled mi tie n i bite a rose hahaz.. n during hostel celebration i forgot for what event hahaz.. then me n Esther danced too back then... okie just look for sum entries a few months back.. or is it a year back? i forgot alr hahaz.. found another Magic player in the new hoste.. eit did i forgot to mention that i moved hostel again? to NUS High School hostel hahaz.. now feel kinda tired already writing dis hahaz.. fourth year havnt got as much events as the third but also very memorable hahaz.. getting a new buddy n quarelled a few times, getting birthday cake hahaz.. 'raping' Ricky on his birthday hahaz we strip him n apply counterpain all over his body then put some Ice Gel then take one bucket of water, we make sure that this bucket of water wet him, literally wet him especially on the part where we put lotsa counterpain n ice gel hahaz.. ...on this year too i sort of in a cold war wit jenny for almost 6 months n she become a christian too during dat period hahaz.. otherwise i dont think she will be a christian.. or wouold she? hahaz.. shez kinda anti-religion before... thanks to Ben now Christ have more faithful follower hahaz.. though im started a few years earlier i wasnt as faithful because of mi rebelious nature n mi past experience maybe i should write another entry titled "SToRY oF MY FaiTH" hahaz.. might be fun to read me tesifying.. not for Him but against hahaz.. dunno la.. but then we made up n become closer than ever hahaz.. spend hell lotsa time wit her during dinner n lunch..n having hard time to get her to eat breakfast hahaz.. after dat having a few trouble.. watch movie first time with her on the 19th i forgot the month already but i remember the date sumhow.. or is it 19th hahaz. nvm.. then saw a huge fire ball from the hostel because of a leak in the industrial building in that Jurong area..then haf a problem wit one of the JJ scholars hahaz.. we all dun relli like his attittude but he'z juz dun bother hahaz.. in the end he didn't get JJ scholarz jersey since one of us cross out his name in the list of t-shirt order.. not a good memories but still its one of it =).. towards the end there's another time of me n Jenny studying together n Derry too =) we played cards in between our study time hahaz.. so that we can relax a li'l bit =).. then we finished our A level.. prom nite was on the 29th Dec so i specially go Spore for it hahaz.. n i smuggle mi twinnie into the prom hahaz.. oh ya.. Asean Dance.. i almost forgot hahaz.. spend quite lotsa time wit twinnie too in there hahaz... ...
that's a glimpse of mi 4 year in S'pore life =) i cut out the school n studying part thou hahaz.. what made me love the memories i got there is that. i feel that peeps there understood me well n it's hell lots more comfy there as compared to here.. i dare to say JJ scholars is the only community that made me feel relli comfy n feel relli good to live together wit them though conflicts are always around like the wrong attittude of sum peeps, the 'crime' that Radit did hahaz but luckily he only gets a warning letter =p.. but then again this morning i woke up n suddenly all the memories came back to me hahaz.. my brain recall it automatically.. i guess i really miss mi life there =)..
erm okie another crappy post of mine...: I WANNA DISAPPEAR FROM THIS FREAKING PLACE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE... I WANT MI LIFE BACK!!!
been travelling alot recently... my head is spinning ard n feel like vomitting for the last 2 days.. mebbe coz im just too sensitive, a few bumps n shakes will make me vomit when im in the car... n im gonna travel again tonight... oh man... hope i wont vomit today hahaz... but im glad i wont be traveling again after tomorrow night for quite a while hahaz.. la la la... i feel dat mi post sounds crap recently hahaz.. but hey actually i drew sumthing but havnt scanned it yet n gonna scan it soon hahaz...
havnt been blogging 4 quite a while... n havnt been able to open mi xanga for quite a while too for dunno wad reason, the iexplorer wants to be debugged everytime i open it n it's always been unsuccesful.. gruu...ok nothing much here except mi body is invaded by flu virus hahaz.. not bird flu of course!!
Juz wanna say dat i've been experiencing stuff dat i've never experienced before in my life.. oh man.. i'm both glad and feel kinda confused having experienced it.. but anyway i do not wish to do it again for a long long time hahaz... but i'd say it feels good to a certain extent... and anyway mi uni status is still processing... DARN IT!!!
Erm this is the foto of one of mi student haha.. ok been having fun here recently.. n after all the work done.. i got to rest for awhile next week haha.. "HOLIDAY"!! haha coz they are having their final year exam.. its kinda like o-level... n they are working hard for it.. even though i heard from some of the students that the techer too been workin quite hard n taught them espionage skill haha.. like when to communicate with ur fren during test and how to do it stealthily.. hmmm what wonderful teacher he is.. ok im being sarcastic here.. hahaz... but nevermind thats their thing.. naybe he just havent heard the story of a cocoon n a pastor.. u havnt heard it too?? ok.. the story goes this way: there's a pastor who loved nature alot... *like me... weee!!!* ok.. then he saw a cocoon.. the butterfly inside that cocoon is trying very hard to break free of the cocoon.. the pastor watch it everyday.. and it seems that the butterfly just dun have enuf strength to free itself from the cocoon.. then he take a pen kniofe n open the cocoon for the butterfly.. however once the butterfly is out of the coccon, it cant fly, its wing is still folded... only then the pastor realised... that coccon is the final test for the butterfly.. when it can break the cocoonm then it means it is strong enuf to fly n live in this world freely.. but then now since he open it up for the butterfly.. it cant fly forever... its sumthing like dat hahaz... so if that teacher is the pastor n the students are the butterflies.. he actually wants to help but he didnt realise dat the help will destroy them... haiz... n the worst part is dat he is a senior teacher.. cant imagine man.. haha... ok i'll update again soon =)
About what I wrote the other day... I tried to think through it again... there is I think thin lining dat would differentiate whether one idolises their religion or truly worship their own God... then dun tell me that I repeated mi point over n over again but this is what those peeps out there need to think thru... When you think other people should join your church n not other church, when you think other religion does not teach the right thing, when you refuse to open up your mind and ear when peeps from other community give you their point of view about ‘belief’, when you start to neglect own well being for *fill in with any nouns in the world… (that would include church)* means you are idolising it, when you think that salvation will only come to those who come to your church or convert to your religion…
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Next one is that I think religion and belief are there to guide you, to help you find the God within you… You do not need to worry that anyone will bring down your belief because he will never succeed; do not worry that anything in the world, made from the hand of human will destroy your faith since your faith will help you through, but when there is a fickle of disbelief in you, doubt in you that something is threatening your belief and your faith… that would only mean one thing, you and you are the only person who are killing and destroying your religion for you have doubted what has been given to you… Shame on anyone who think I tried to make you doubt what you believe, wake up peeps! Remember one thing; what hurt you but do not kill you will make you stronger! Ask your fren to read this if you feel anyone should read this, ask your fren to take a look at my food for thoughts and criticise what I wrote inside if you do not think it’s true and flawed… I will be more than hepi to answer and discuss anything about this matter…
Since mi fren just turned paedophile.. and he wished to noe more about what paedophile is, he then asked me to look at Wikipedia and ask me to write about him hahaz.. (dun worry for those who want to know who this guy is, u can go check, it will be sumwhere in this post =p hey radit, if you wan to know who then read the post okay? You’ll noe who the paedophile guy is =p)*** paedophilia comes from the word pais (child) and philia (love/friendship) hahaz.. but according to wiki, paedophiilia as a whole means the state of being SEXUALLY ATTRACTED exclusively to prepubescent kids ok but it is also used colloquially to denote peeps like mi fren and radit too to certain extent hahaz.. who is attracted to children below local age consent, like a turning 20yrs old guy attaracted to p4 kids (OMG!!! Haha dun worry, few peeps certainly haf different taste)Richard von Krafft-Ebing mentioned that the characteristic of these peeps are: the sexual interest is toward children, either prepubescent or at the beginning of puberty, the sexual interest is the primary one, that is, exclusively or mainly toward children, the sexual interest remains over time okay, then he add that there shld be minimum of 5 yrs old difference in the gap s ince otherwise that may include those kids who fell in love with each other hahaz.. (so lets count.. turning 20 this year and p4 kids so shld be ard 10yr-old.. so 10yrs diff… and p4 is prepubescent ,definitely paedophile rite?) Even tho the term often used to describe child sexual offenders, however this may not be a correct word since paedophile is a lifelong attraction, not the burst of horniness that one suddenly haf (it is situational and not lifelong)Btw in wiki they also give the manual to check whether or not you are a paedophile hahaz supposedly medical one not a joke: -Over a period of at least 6 months, recurrent, intense sexually arousing fantasies, sexual urges, or behaviors involving sexual activity with a prepubescent child or children (generally age 13 years or younger). -The person has acted on these urges, or the sexual urges or fantasies cause marked distress or interpersonal difficulty. -The person is at least age 16 years and at least 5 years older than the child or children in Criterion A. (with exception like those at the end of his adolescence and 13 or 12 yr-old kid) Haha fun fact =) according to the survey in 1989 on 193 undergrads, the result is: 21% acknowledged sexual attraction to some small children; 9% reported sexual fantasies involving children; 5% admitted masturbating to these fantasies; and 7% conceded some probability of actually having sex with a child if they could avoid detection and punishment.. I wonder up to which point dat fren of mine will go haha..Too bad… Many regard pedophilia as highly resistant to psychological interference and have dismissed as ineffective most "reparative strategies, the chance of recovery is very low too according to wiki -.-..** So how? Isn’t dat enuf?? What? I havnt mention the guy? Haha I did mention him/her.. hahas if you think I havnt then read again.. then read again upside down, if still cant read again backwards maybe u’ll find a hint phrase there.. or maybe block all the post, I may have use black so it blends wit mi background haha if u still can’t find then you are lousy hahaz… Radit, can find or not??
before anything else about paedophile, this is the new fone in mi fone family haha...
another twin foto... hahaz..
I’ve got an interesting story about a priest and his disciple… One day, the disciple ask the priest who taught him a lot of God’s words “Teacher, what you just taught wasn’t in the bible!”.. then the teacher answered “Then please add those in your bible..”. Then another day the disciple found out something weird, he asked again “Teacher, what you taught contradicts with the one in the bible!”.. The teacher answered “Then crossed the one in your bible and change it to the one that I just taught..” What’s the moral of the story? Religion and bible should work as your guide in achieving what the Lord wants.. But do not let those guide be your obstacle in achieving that.. in Matthew 5:29-30, Jesus said “If your eyes misguided you, then gouge it outand throw it away… if your right hand misguided you then cut it off and abandon it.. it works not only in that way, it will include too, if your bible misguide you, you should just leave it or ok we should not be so harsh like what the teacher told the disciple, we should cross it out.. We should be dynamic, life’s changed since the bible was written.. We should adapt and assimilate the bible teaching that is still relevant and ignore those which are not relevant anymore =).. Or cross those part which aren’t relevant anymore and write on it the things that is more relevant =) +++ Okie just wanna add up some stuff that I just remembered.. =) Some people might agree that money is the root of evil.. I wouldn’t agree with that, a priest from City Harvest Church made me realize that =).. The obsession of money is the root of the evil.. Money will help you do lots of thing, with it you can change lots of people’s life, save many lives and also prevent evil thing from happening.. but then the obsession of gathering money, amassing wealth will do only harm.. not only to you but also people around you… =) so being a priest, a pastor, or being anyone, you need not stop working n doing in-depth learning journey just to be saved.. what you need to leave is the obsession of getting money, your attachment to the worldly thing is the one need to be left so that you can follow the teaching of God =).. okie true Siddhartha Gautama also known as the Buddha left his kingdom and wealth to achieve enlightenment, or Jesus who ask his disciple to leave everything as in really every worldly material behind just to follow Him.. but I know I too am not ready to leave everything behind, in fact, Im still very attached to it haha.. It is hard truly hard to leave everything behind, but then again, we should not get discouraged by these obstacle.. we will eventually able to remove all these obstacles but in the mean time, why not we use things that work as an obstacle as a stepping stone in spreading the word of God? Let say, you have money.. You know the money that you own will drive you to earn more, your goal becoming more and more.. you will never be satisfied, why? Coz your goal will always increases.. this is wad I call obsession.. but when we can leave this obsession, why not we live humbly, use the left over money we have to help other, to donate others.. but we should be logical too, we can only give according to what we can afford.. giving out things that you can afford will be equal to sacrificing what your neighbor sheep or goat or whatever.. let say you need $1 to live one day.. you earn $2/day.. lets say you give $2, the whole money that you earned in one day.. you won’t be able to get your meal n stuff, what will you do? If you ask your neighbour for rice or anything, won’t that mean you’ve sacrificed your neighbour’s rice? Unless you choose to fast that day or by God’s grace someone come and give you rice to eat..
After thinking about something and sharing a few things from those who have been "touched" and "felt" the presence of God.. I realise one thing and dare to challenge these few peeps out there who read this blog.. Who are you actually worshipping? are you worshipping your God or worshipping your religion? do you actually spread the word of your God or you just spread your religion? I've been thinking a lot about this, okie at one glance you might say i do worship my God, i do spread the teaching of God.. but then again ask yourself one more time, do you spread the word of the God or your religion?
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I can only share things dat i really feel thru mi own experience.. so what I’m gonna say next will only affect those who share believe with me, i am a Christian.. (ps: the questions up there isnt only meant for Christian =) ) for those who love referencing to the bible, we should check Marc 9:39-40 "... Jesus said: "Do not stop them! For none of those who have done miracle using My name, can curse Me at the same time. Those who aren't against us, they are on our side." I know things may sound a lil bit different from your version of bible but the things it trying to say should be the same... =).. What Jesus taught us is to love our fellow human being, He taught us to be faithful to our one and almighty God, and to do good before our “turn to report to the One up there” come =)… So do you actually spread this word? And do imprint this value and spread it? Or do you think these can only be taught in your place or your religion? Does going to church without missing one day or hearing an adept theologist every week help you spreading the word of God? Okie.. going to church every week and listening to those pro are good and its because they are trying to wake us up from our dream world.. or do you think those who aren’t in your league haven’t been saved? Or they aren’t good enough to spread the word of the God? Because a few of us always try to increase the number of people going to church, pursue everyone else who aren’t in the church to go there and become a member of their church… Im not trying to attack anyone here =) but try see again and look thru again.. the God is a jealous God, He would not let His followers idolizing anything else other than Himself.. when you are ready to kill, to give your everything to your religion to your church, and do crazy thing to make the church bigger, doesn’t that mean you are idolizing the church? Let it sap thru first, it might not be easy to absorb this.. You do not study for the church, you do not eat when you are doing things for the church and u sacrifice everything for the church, doesn’t dat mean u r idolizing the church? If you are doing it for your God, why getting someone joining the church is so important? B’cause He never try to get people to join his church, He didn’t even try to stop those who aren’t His follower to make miracle or try to get that person to follow Him.. So why does it matter to you whether he is in your church or not?
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And another one is about judging in the Matthew 7:1-5 it’s about why you should never judge anyone else and it ends wit the expression about someone who tried to remove a splinter of wood from his brother’s eye while he himself have a huge chunk of wood stuck in his eyes.. to make it easier it’s like a blind guy try to lead another blind guy crossing a road.. we should never judge anyone, or even accuse anyone of idolizing something else, or saying they are not good enough.. a few of us might say “That religion worship statue or this religion worship a dead person..” or you even pity them for doing that.. if you do think this way, then you should pity yourself for being ‘so shortsighted’.. we should not judge anyone else’s faith, cause when you judge them, God will judge your faith too using that kind of measure too.. You might pity us for doing thing that you thought as a wrong thing to do, and your God will pity you too or having such thought… peace =)
hmmm... just recieved the most awaited letter ever hahaz.. i take a shot of it =p.. its not from mi secondary school stalker .. erm havnt told anyone about the stalker hahaz.. but dun worry if u dont believe it coz its just as easy as thinking dat my close fren just turned paedophile or whatever u spell it hahaz.. its from mi twinnie yay!! hahaz.. anyway now mi students r having their exam try out.. apparently not all of them passed the test.. but its okie hahaz.. dun feel like typing much but its ok ahahaz.. i'll type more nxt time..
